He pretended that he was in there, and it worked. He gazed at the horizon.
Even though she could have realized what was happening, she didn't want to. She preferred not to look at him. That is the way it had happened many times. What if he decides to confess her what he really feels? She does not want to know anything, but his existence. “Is it enough?”, she has often wondered herself. While he was following all the movements of that man, she was thinking that her fiancé was just confused, certainly. In St. James Park, the scene: nobody around, they were sitting down after training. He was still absent. The routine that he is used to: jogging and boxing, everyday. That time it was not a boxing mate, she indeed noticed it. This time it must have been true, and she immediately thought about her age, and she said to herself: “I am still young. What if I give it up?” That moment lasted a few minutes, but it seemed a very long time. He was still somewhere else. She perfectly knew what he was thinking about. Suddenly, he said: “Wait, I’ll be back in a minute”. She noticed he was a little nervous, but she did not ask him anything at all. It was the same story. Instead of complaining, she decided to think about their future wedding. “Things are going to change, times are going to be better”, she thought. She got her makeup and painted her eyes that were already wet. Matthew took a long time, and when he got back, everything turned into a common day.
Iván Islas.
June 12th, 2008.
Illustration: Bird On The Wire/ Mari Mitsumi
